The End~

As emily realized she may have finally found herself, she thought for a moment and had an idea. She smiled to herself knowing what to do next.
happily ever after,
love,
em
P.S. my new blog is on my links under Tye-Dye so go check it out! The title to this post is also a link.
?~*THE END*~?

Abrupt stop

after all my summer routines come to an end, it feels like nothing happens!
fortunately i got out of the house yesterday to see Step Up with Ang and Marissa B.
I hadnt seen Ang all summer!
And it felt as though i hadnt seen merissa in a long time even if i saw her on tuesday; at the cast party & sleepover.
i have a 2/3 chance Zach likes me, but im gonna try to get over him, because im going to highschool and hes going in 8th grade and theres plenty of fine guys @ mhs.
Also on the bittter sweet side is that a guy actually has a crush on me! mickey. but i just dont feel like going out w/ any1 right now cuz im goin into hs and mickey is zach's age.
hmph. ugh. hey, well they'll be freshmen one day....
goin up north l8r
luv
em

Since last time ive posted ive changed so much

im friends w/ a girl i h8ed this yr
im friends w/ an abercrombie girl
i like a york. zach york.
i am a passionate cristian
i got a lot of attention in Godspell!!!
i performed Godspell!
i like kohl's! could i change any more?
yes.
i cried infront of an audience!
twice!
AND i enjoyed Vacation Bible School (well, i was a leader. and the kids liked me better than my co-leader *zach* swoon!)

hey happy anniversary

guess what? I am someone's role model!!!!!! im so happy!
i go on vaca on fri
Copper harbor once again!
i love that place!
its a small mining town on a great lake. i love hiking/climbing the rocks.
im so excited!!!!

just realized

that its almost the 16, july 16. that means i will have been blogging on this very blog for two years. wooo. that makes me feel cool. jkjkjk. yeah i am a dork, but im a happy dork.
!

fashion observer

i love fashion
and trends
but
iam not good
at spending money
or keeping up
but i love vintage
and stripes.
i dont make enough
babysitting 3 very
very naughty kids
and i dont live close
to mayfair mall
argh

let down

i was at camp
it was sooooooooo
much fun and
i met people
and asked for their email
but got adresses and phone #
and one guy he likes jewlery
and we talked
about things i never
thought a guy wolud want to
talk bout especially with
me and i finished his sentances
and the next day he sang phantom
of the opera and said his
myspace
was ghandi feet or thats
what i thought but he is a foot
taller than me and has
an accent which is really hot
i gave him my adress and email and myspace
and my sunglasses
he says sugar like sho- garr and rolls his r
cuz he speaks portugese and 4 other languages fluently
and i met a girl
she was really nice and funny and i gave her my myspace
and vice versa
and she said she wuz goin on it right away and i cant find her either
so now i am sad
the boy's name is terry
and the girl is jenesis with a J

im graduated

yup. school's our FOE EVER!!!!!!!
no more middle school.
i miss bein the tippy top of the bay lane pyramid tho. now i go get hazed but theres so many guys there! lol
tina, however, asked out jon for me...
she hasnt answered but guys arent really interested in me....
no guy has ever really liked me since 2nd grade. can u believe most my boy friends are pity dates? they pity ME!!!!! >:( i bite thier heads off grrrr hehehe chomp
ne way
i danced alllllll nught at the dance! nick said i am like i pary every day!!! woooo! mi gusta to paaaaaaarrtea!!!!
well, ill post when i find out if i am single or am rejected.
i like you,
em

im in science right now

hi
kt inman says hi

lol
ymca lock in- fun- waaaaaaaaay tired
argh saturday
sunday my b-day!!!!!!!!!
my cousin and aunt and cousin in law and their 2 kids
sooooooooooo cute
I GOT AN iPOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yayayayayayayayayayayay!!!!
it only has 14 songs right now...
yeah yeah yeahs and panic! @ da disco
c ya

study hall and new frnz

Jessica curler is soooooooooooo nice were really great friends. too much fun! lol! mrs morgan sucks though. god i laff so hard in language!!!!! catherine called fukin birdy we read and it sucked!!!!!!! in goin to tinas party and drivin ang to tha lock in and im djin with lauren b. 10 days till i get my ipod
omfg for graduation ceremony every one is just dressin nice. not in dresses!!!!!!!!
i must buy a new out fit~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wut am i gonna tell mommy?(she is a goat. dont ask, its a jessica curler and i thing.lol)
^ hahaha angie!!!!
sierras been gone most the week sept today, i think. so @ lunch i sat wit ang fun ness!
choir is not over yet: assembly 2morrow, my supah high note infront of all the 7th and 8th graders!!!!!!!!!!!
and relay for life: cancer fund raiser were singin we were invited!! choir camp wit merissa and kolkoskis o and mechelle iz my private counsellor not that i believe in god but i have to b confirmed for my rents and every one elses councellor is 50 yrs old and up but mine is 19!!!!! spencer chose my dad. mrs milton is directing a musical at church for the youth and confirmation! i might get voice lessons this summer from a person named kari.
single ness
ill have to get used to it
the yeah yeah yeas rock!!!! i bought their new cd show ur bones with gold lion : I love!!! cheated hearts iz good too
omfg i looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove taylor hicks!!!!! i went to birmingham over sb for a day! maybey i have been where he has and i definatly drove down the same highway. lol
my new fave quote is "woo" - Taylor Hicks
c u round l8r maybe tonight or tomarrow

also btw

eh
jason
i changed my mind
~friends~

oh btw

im @ sql! hi angie its 5th hour where r u?
lol. do u like my little guy? -> (>0.0)> awwwwwwwwwww
arctic monkeys rule!
i loooooooooove the gold lion song by the yeah yeah yeah's
OH ANGIE- TAHNX SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
MUCH 4 THA NIRVANA CDs
(she gave me nevermind and uhhh idk?)
♪gold lions gonna telll me where the light is oh ohohoohohhooh!♪

yes, my hamster

i have decided to mane her buttons because she is as cute as a button. (>0.0)>
she does not bite and can balance well on her toilet paper tube and she likes her treats!
i bought a manga book called fruits basket.

new, un named hamstere

i did my solo and rock as well as everyone else. the crowed loved the whole show. WENDY messed me up tho in jazz choi grrrrrrrrrrr i still luver tho. yeah the altoes messed up a bit yeah
got a new hamster, 8 weeks old. she looks a lot like feather. no name yet. she hasnt bit me yet *knocks on wood for 5 hrs!!!*

oh hi i missed u

last concert 8 grade tomu=ight i have a shut de do solo. my hamster died and i like jaysom a little. argh im just desprate. i got mrs milton a pressie 4 bing such a great teacher. i luv her! argh. all my friends have boy friend, one has blown him and one plans on it! i feel so, so virgin! i just want a guy but first i need a diet! i keep tellin myself ill start again but the candy in my house is soooooo tempting me! i started bleaching my teeth, theyer sorts white now, i guess. i takes time. its wierd! i cant drink certain things. its like a liquid diet. ttyl i hope. culvers after concert obviosly bye!!

yes i am aware it is friday night

and i am on the computer
HI ANGIE!!!!!!!! LOTSA LUV!!!!!!!!
do u ever feel that u
arent living life to the fullest?
sre gonna fall in love
ur dreams are coming true or tryin to tell u sumthin
i know its wierd but i feel that way. im going to try to make a memory every day.
this weeks memories are:

1. wtf naughty comic "I bet youre wondering....."
2. "nose fart"aka sumtimes when i hold back very big laffter my nose makes a farting noise from loss of breath.
3. going to the gas station: sierra and i walked to shell and she said a guy who works there flirts with lisa, my mom. when we checked out he said with a middle eastern accent: where iz lisa. i laffed so hard omigad!!!!
4. muskego elementary: we walked there too

the only action i get from guys is drinking out of the same drink- does that count? no.

but ill tell u about it:

kurt j. drank out of my green tea cuz i told him it wuz spiked

jason m i stole his rootbeer and then l8r he gave irt to me

mike r asked to dring sum of my sierra mist

im just talkin about action cuz my 7th grader friend- angie i dont think u know her- almost gave her boyfriend a bj!!!!!!!!:o

there iz actually a girl in our grade who iz bi. she iz blonde. thats what i heard from another 7th grader. i think bi iz worse than gay cuz they just cant choose i guess

to end on a good note i luv sunshine!!!!!!!!!

i read this blog....

.... and i'm amazed! i hope i still write as good as i have! i am still the desperate luv sick gir lwho started this blog almost two years ago yet i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
different!!!!! yep i read my whole blog and thats a lot of blogg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm sooo happy! what a beeeeeeeeeeeeeee-you-teee-ful day! the tulips are open, magnolias in bloom, and the lilacs are on their way. the smell of fresh cut grass is so, so energising and the sun makes me smile ^_^. im gonna make this post yellow and pretty! i luv magnolias.
ohh damn- u cant make the hearts w/ the angley thing and a 3 on here :(

abandonment

i have abandoned my blog and personal journal! sorry! i hate not being popular! everyone always says emily ur wierd! but i think the popular kids are like waaaaaaaay wierd! sometimes i think every one hates me and im going to end up like jak bonaface or jay staub or carman hartman. *shudders* that would take a lot though. i wish i was at least middley popular, but im a total dork/geek. im not at the blottom or almost bottom. im in ther limbo placement. idk. i just dont like it!!!!!!!!!!!

back from fl

back to school, back to the drama
eh i wanna get over joe but argh
i just got my hair cut n styled! carla did it amazingly! im a cross between jojo and paula abdul!
^_^ sooo cute! i need to get a styling brush like she has to get this style!!!
ttfn <>

Intoxicated

yay!
music man was last weekend so i never had time to post. now u r very behind on the emily news and if u havent already heard it from the grapevine...
i love joe!
so i told my 7th grade friends since he is in 7th grade.
they, and sie, asked him out for me.
so many ppl were there i got to hide behind them nonchalantly.
he said i wus crazy.
that means no.
the next day
i had a TOTAL mood swing and cried behind stage at rehersal. that wuz the worst day of my life cuz my moms wuz a ginormous beeeeeeeeeeeotch about it. it was terrible. i felt emo
but now im better and joe flirts with me sometimes! but only a little. otherwise we 5th grade flirt, wich is just regular talking, just really giggly and smitten. during real performances we ALWAYS goofed off, i was so swoon-y. *sigh* it seems like in my journal he's all i write about.
he has me all tied up. i like him more than ive ever liked another guy- i mean it.

but enough hormones. i made liike 50 friends and now in 2 mo. is summer then i leave them behind for
that's right
HIGH SCHOOL
the place that is only a mystery to me.
i finished my journal i started in september,
so i bough the cutest one ive ever had
its black w/ pink polka dots! yay!
meena and i talk, just not bffffff talk.

durring our 3rd and final music man performance, the one where our entire middle school comes and watches- popular kids and all- i had a wonderful em+joe moment. alex is harold, merissa is marion= leads. well as we all know they have a luv song called till there wuz u wich our company turned into a duet. and joe looked @ me and said, till there was you! omg i totally mushed up and my brain stopped but if it hadn't i would have said, till there wuz u, joe . but i totally mushed up.
okay hereis the song:
There were bells on the hill
But I never heard them ringing,
No, I never heard them at all
Till there was you.

There were birds in the sky
But I never saw them winging
No, I never saw them at all
Till there was you.

And there was music,
And there were wonderful roses,
They tell me,
In sweet fragrant meadows of dawn, and dew.

(duet part)
There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No, I never heard it at all
Till there was you!

study hall once again!

hi im soooooooo bored im writing about huckleberry finn
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sigh sigh*~~~~
luv moi

hey ive been on a lot lately & its not so bad

im thinkin of changen my url to soulmeetsbody.blogspot or maybe i dk i might just leave it.
solo ensamble iz saturday. im doin an A song in italian called Per la Gloria. i hope i get a 1* or at least a 1. My ensamble iz a jazz w/ 18 ppl init we r singin blue skies and stormy weather. sw has a solo in it i reeeeeeely hope i get.
my solo iz soooo from an opera griselda if ther iz a pic on this post its froom it!

yah ummmmmm

aloha im at school and im sooooo bored. nix sitting at sthephs table im sittin at angie's!

stress easing, drama, not quite

i though Music Man wood b the only drama in my life, but i wuz WRONG!!!

1. music man
2. school
3. parents
4. meena- she left us to b popular and thinks its okay if she pretends thats not how it is
5. religion- 4 me changes like every week
6. manic depression, or when i'm at home maniac depression

well the depression is lessening as the stress is, but man im tired!!!

on a good note i did good on my audition for highschool coral choir! yay!

need 2 shop!!!!!

uggggh i need to spent money! i have 52.11 dollars, which for me is a lot to save up.
i dont like brian. i am not in lust at this time with anyone, ill wait for someone.

ST PAT"S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Evan Rudd likes me. hes a nerd. but im getting desprate.......
i <3>
have fun partying like an irish drunk to nite!!!!

I've got a candle,
And I've got a spoon
I live in a hallway
With no doors and no rooms
Under the window sill
They all were found
A touch of concrete within a doorway
Without a sound

Chorus:
Someone save me if you will
And take away all these pills
And please just save me, if you can
From the blasphemy in my wasteland

How did I get hereAnd what went wrong
Couldn't handle forgiveness
Now I'am far beyond gone
And I can hardly remember
The look of my own eyes
How could I love this
A life so dishonest
It made me compromise

Chorus
Jump in the water
Jump in with me
Jump on the altar
Lay down with me
My hardest question
Too answer is WHY!!!

Chorus

Some one save me (x3)
Somebody save me
Somebody save me
Please don't erase me

new age

well im wicca now, thats the religion of witchcraft
it rocks
blessed be!
i like
brian
steavan
matt
and like every 1 else!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey

so over brian. no crush to speak of
i asked meena to say 3 guys i could maybe think about
1) DJ K.
2) Mike R
3) Mike D.

figuring out wat i cood write

HEY! just wanted to write you a note to tell u i like you. language art wood be soooooooo boring with out u! lol good times. i dont wanna write a long note and hope you write back cuz i wanna know if you like me too!


OKAY TELL ME HOW IT IS AND COMMENT!!!

stress, hamsters, spells and science

i bought a hamster but she is evil and makes me bleed, yet i looooove her.
i have to do my science project. i hate that sooooooo much.
ive done a couple spells wich are 2 to make guys think of me and one to finish off matt.
i wanna do those spells i posted but i dont know what exactly i want to tell him.
theres a really hot punk sitting down 2 computers away! he asked me where the volume was, listening to ummm i forgot, but they are popular, have a new cd.

if u go to the side bar, there is a link, love spells, that is a grrrreat site!

sum SPeLLs

Love is what I seek today love in any form or way (name of person) should be full of love as much passion as a dove and when this spell be done let it harm no one
That's it chant that 3x looking in a mirror and holding your temples with your middle and pointer finger. It works, well it did for me it depends on your magical abilities

You need: 1 red candle, rose oil, something to carve with. Carve a heart on the red candle, dab some rose oil on the top of the candle and let it burn for two hours. During that time, you need to write a love letter to the person you like then when the candle has burned down pour the wax on the letter and seal with a kiss - give it to the person and they will very soon fall in love with you.
^i like this 1

wow

i've liked a lot of guys but doesnt seem to be as many worthwhile ones.
i found out MATT actually LIKES meena. o my god. he was a waste of time anyways!
BRian, i havent given up yet. we have a lot of specific things in common like we like gloria jean WAAAAAAAYYYY more than starbucks, we like 4 wheelers, sno mobiles, air soft guns, Michigan, and dune bugggys.
something tells me hed be a good boy friend and an even better kisser!♥

hey beeotches!

hmmmmm not much new but i really want a mouse. desprate for a man in my life i pursue yet brian and matt. good news: my bffs bf is comin to lake danoon and livin by her (sie) wich is sooo awsome. i yearn for that electic felling when you kiss a hot/nice guy that goes from your tounge to your toes. i sadly have only felt it twice, and regret both but luvd the feeling!

hey not to much to talk about

lalala
like tha pic?
hmmmmmmmm
i still like brian
but i have doubts
at least mabey Matt likes me.... that would be a great rebound.
ewwwwwwwwwwwww
Cory Hansen xalled me! he is ewwwwwwwww.
he wanted me to ask out MEENA
long story short: i said no and he asked ME out then. i lied that meena had a boy friend. me too.
ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
ewwwwwwwwwwwww
well at least he has good taste! :)

rainbows

[Violent J]This goes out to that special someone in my lifeOh we all have somebody special, this is for themI like ice cream, cherry pie And lemonade with summer breezeI like rainbows, leafy trailsAnd puppy dogs with bumble beesI like cotton candy gumAnd bumper cars and carnivalsGolden skies and hazel eyesAnd sand in-between my toes...but(Chorus)SOMETHIN' TELLS ME THAT I HATE YOU!SOMETHIN' TELLS ME I MUST KILL YOU![Shaggy 2 Dope]YOU AIN'T SHIT BUT A SLUTY ASS MOTHERFUCKING SLUT YOU FUCKING WHORE!I FUCKING HATE YOU![Violent J]I like birthday candle cakes, and titty shakes with siliconeSecret whispers and Delok SistersAnd apple dips, ginger bread homesFaygo chills they give me thrillsAnd Nyquil pills they make me smileHershey Kisses and happinessesSomething so bliss yet all the while(Chorus)[Shaggy 2 Dope]SUCK MY FUCKING DICK, FUCK OFFGO FUCK YOURSELF YOU FUNKY ASS LITTLE BIOTCH![Violent J]I like Shaggy he's my friendI like his mom she nice to me[Shaggy 2 Dope]Thank you J, I like you too[Violent J]Oh well, it's okay we're familyRavor chicks and kung fu flicksAnd sugar sticks like lollipops (popping sound)All these things happiness bringsBut my hatred for you don't stop...bitch(Chorus 2x)[*Shaggy yelling*]BIAAAATCHHHHH, I FUCKING HATE YOUUUUU I FUCKING KILL YOUUUUUU, YOU SCARY BIIIIITCH The hottest songs from Insane Clown Posse

omg thats me n im awsum

mysterious AND amazing!!!

i guess u ve been hearing a lot about brian

just tell me when it gets annoying
lotsa updates from today:
1st hr- brian is in my lab group, science. we do a lot of talking!
and then in 3rd hr- i through one (1) paper ball at him and i get practically showered with them in return! and then i was TRYING to glare at him but he is just so........ so i dont know, cute, i can't pretend to be mad @ him!
so then comes 7th hr- meena told him i liked him. i dont really know how to explain or understand his reaction. frankly, he didnt react. he does not show if he cares or not. BUT THERES MORE...
then my art class (Matt, Mark, Tyler, KAtie, Sarah, Nikki, Rachel, me) wuz trying to figure out who he, the guy i liked, wuz. then matt jokingly said jay, the Gr0sSEsT guy in out grade . so i was faking i looooooved jay and seriously said "hes amazing i reallly wantto marry him" and rachel said"Wat if brian wuz out side the door listening and thought it wuz him u said that about" and then whos to walk in the door but him. i was sooooooo embarassed that i kept the all ready old joke going so brian wood hear. so i wuz embarassed 2 in 15 sec. A RECORD
theres still more
after class i wuz walking w/ meena and gabby and brian and gabby pushed ME into BRIAN. gabby is really strong and i fake cat fighted her it wuz funny but embarassing. ough!!!!!!

loooooong day

but i am getting my braces off soon, 20 days.
i like brian a lot. his eyes take me away!
he is Italian
hes older than me
he is medium quiet
he has great eyes
he flirts
he has a nice voice (talking)
he has amazing eyes
i ve been thinking about vampires.
i now have a new belief. i call it christian/spiritualist but it is very LoOSe om beliefs but i think its right. it focuses mainly on life after death and that there is a God and he is like cool.
hmmmmm
leave me a comment about vampires.
i wonder if i am really one like people tell me.
but the real vamps say that if u r wondering you 98% chance u r 1.
i just hope if i am im good at it! lol ;)

early release

oaky. i kinda like a guy. he meets my criteria. he has the GREATEST eyes that if i could i wood look in at long periods at a time. MEENA asked out ALEX!!!!!!!!!!!!
but alex cant date but he wood say yes. nigel ridly is the nerd and he can date but the most popular guy cant date. that is effin messed up!!!
but i like brian.

december- rehersals, dinners, concerts, pressies

i loooooooove pressies. i love getting someone something theyll love foreverrrrrr. and of course i do enjoy my presents!
rehersals- okay they are VERY boring but i like being in a choir it just connects you and all the energy and spirit is wayyy cool and there is the occasional flop that is funny.
mr. & mrs. smilth is a waaaaay awsome movie.
myspace is like waay annoying i ve tried 100 times to get a freakin account!!!!!!!
adiemus is like an annoying song.... but in the end, i really like it plus tomorrow i get to see emily roths and i havent seen her in 2 years! damn you myspace!!!!

mean people r mean

and i hate mean people.

but ne ways
you have always heard me rant
about wantin a bf
so ill just tell u
single is once again
getting very old.
being broke is getting really old too. i just cant supply alllll the $ i need for my demands and it kills me that in too effin young to get an effin job.
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!
It really isnt fair. plz tell me wut u think. an if ur my frnd tell me who to go out with cuz i cant think of ne 1!! ;)

Tiffany diamond studs set in platinum:$1,250

I want this very bad. One day, Em. One day. Would you rather have lifetime free whatever you want from tiffany&co or vesace?

Tuesday

hey- new fave outfit: purple sweater from Aero,
light brown cords from Bannana Republic,
and all my fave cubic zerconia= total prep!
midnight bowling next sat.? i hope.
who's invited: Me, Meena, Sierra, Kurt, Spencer, Dylan A. and his friends. maybe Rachel West.
I wanna be friends with rachel. i useta not like her but i just didnt know her. i can be that mean sometimes.
*personal reminder* Be nice- its tha holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its tha most wonderful time of tha year...............................fa la la la la la la la laaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

today

meena's in Mexico, sierra' s up north, ithink. so's its just me, an haley- = me =haley. and just because she might red this alls ill say is emily and 2 other, lets call them name withdrawns,dont like her.  I wish me and name withdrawns didnt have her.

but to end on a good note, im in the act of making more friends and adding them to my exclusive friends list. i need more freinds!!!!!!!!

ps

spencer found outs i liked him and i knew he wouldnt so im not sad, but i gotta few great compliments in the end.

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lazy

im like way tooo lazy and crammed this month. it all started with testing. not anytesting. standard. enough said.
i cant write poems loke i used to. cant read my "sixth sense" thoughts.
but dont get me wrong, really, im not depressed. its actually been good- like report card (THANKYOU MRS. BERMAN) and sie's b-day (14!!!!! paaaaaaaaaarrrtyyyyyyyy) and lotsa other stuff but that halloween candy is starting to show and wit thanx givin i am way not in the eating mood.

but speakin of depression, reminding me of goth-emily. i dont really know wo i am right now.
its so hard to be prep and ive become like waaaaaaaaay stuck up-er.
i kinda want to be goth outside cuz its so comfy, but my crush-a told me im waaaaaaay better in color. but crush-b is kinda goth but he doesnt matter much.

boys- jayson(b) spencer (a)
but idk. at least im goin to a party fri. and theres hot guys gonna b there

New Poem

Shadows speaking
Moon is leaking
Light
I can't make
Out the words
The figures say
But I know
You can help me fing my way

Words and words all words
Flying around just like birds
I can't make
Out the frases
But i can see the smile
On their faces
Just help me find my way

sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows

Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows,
Everything that's wonderful is what I feel when we're together,
Brighter than a lucky penny,
When you're near the rain cloud disappears, dear,
And I feel so fine just to know that you are mine.
My life is sunshine, lollipops and rainbows,
That's how this refrain goes, so come on, join in everybody!
Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows,
Everything that's wonderful is sure to come your way
When you're in love to stay.
Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows,
Everything that's wonderful is what I feel when we're together,
Brighter than a lucky penny,
When you're near the rain cloud disappears, dear,
And I feel so fine just to know that you are mine.
My life is sunshine, lollipops and rainbows,
That's how this refrain goes, so come on, join in everybody!
Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows,
Everything that's wonderful is sure to come your way
'Cause you're in love, you're in love,
And love is here to stay!

uggh

bored, angry.
single.
yet..
hyper and happy! ^-^
(// *~*i heart erik*~*\\)
ive written some poetry... but oops i forgot...
if you are a guy..... never mind. theres never anyone on this site...

red

is for rembrance. buy it. best series: Blue is for Nightmares

james supposedly is my boyfreind..... THEN Y WONT HE EMAIL ME? maybe ill call him.
how about U email me!!!! phantomphreak1896@yahoo.com


HI LAURIE FARIA STOLARZ LEAVE A COMMENT W/NAME SO I KNOW! my site is kinda boring, but if you look in the earlier months there are good poems if i do say so myself.

boy crazy!!!

boys i like:
Erik
Troy
James
Perry
Jared

do u remember.....

..... troy?
i love him again. will he love me? i dont know. i need to get a hold of him. what should i say?

cant waste time
cant waste thoughts
what should i say
what do u want me to do?
if u ask me who i love
if u ask me who i need
its you

hi again, a bored me

i want to do something. just call me.

too many rules for this girl
who wants to rule the world
why cant she just let go
but they all hold her back
from who she really is
hold her from where she could go
what she could teach
will she fall
when she tries
to get what she wants

wanna be

every one i know in my grade is talking about popular. they all want to be in the right group. they think i can do it. me: girl in the wrong clothes who says the wrong things and likes all the wrong things. i dont know. i think i'll just end up embarassing myself. i'm afraid to be in the right group because i have the right freinds and i dont want to loose them. thats my greatest fear, even after surviving it. please god, dont let it happen again. i need advise!!!!

can you believe i wrote this a year ago

There is a girl
She is alone she is lost
Not ready to be found
She might be gone
She is right here
But that's not where she is
She might be strange
This might sound strange
But she is me
She has a light inside
An idea that glows
Maybe she knows
Its not called hiding
She's deciding where to go
What to hear
What does she hear
She never seems to understand
What she says what she thinks

what ever!!!

Christine Elisabeth Moon Daae's Aliases:
Your movie star name: Dove Chocolate Ralf
Your fashion designer name is Christine Paris
Your socialite name is Coconut New York
Your fly girl / guy name is C Daa
Your detective name is Otter Muskego
Your barfly name is Kitkat Margarita
Your soap opera name is Elisabeth Moon Somerset
Your rock star name is Ice Cream Horse
Your Star Wars name is Chrgar Daager
Your punk rock band name is The Lovable Cord

a friday @ home

a friday, at home. great day, though. note: leah miller is fun. invite her! i met my step cousin yesterday. olivia. shes sooo cute!!
guess what? i like troy. i love him. does he remember i'm alive? i hope so. i hope. he probably has a girlfriend. grrrrr. but erik approves.
went to a haunted place today. saw somthing wierd in the mirror.
havent had a seance in awile..
getting harder to hear erik/ predict things but...
im telepathic!
i can hypnotise really well! (must b from erik!!!!)
type more later

lol

YES!!! you must listen to music for 3947327239
hours of the day!!! you rock music whore!

Are you a music whore?!? (with pics)
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im new

im really christian now. i love it! i still have new age intrests, but not as much.

ANGEL OF MUSIC, HIDE NO LONGER. COME TO ME, STRANGE ANGEL!

last one

And now, the moment you have all be waiting for or dreading.DRUMROLL......
"Monty Python and the Opera Ghost"
Scene 1(A little dressing room. A rather beautiful but ditsy young woman is brushing her hair. A chicken runs by. The girl sighs once, then sighs again. Then sighs a third time. She stops, and looks at the camera.)
Girl: What was my line? Who am I playing?
Director: CUT!
Scene 1 (again)(A dressing room. A rather beautiful but ditsy young woman is brushing her hair. The girl sighs. This is Christine Daaé).
Christine: Oh, I wish my dear mother had never died!
Off camera: ::whispered:: Father.
Christine: Wha?. oh. I wish my dear father had never died! But he did. I wish he would send me that angel he promised.
(The sound of a harp playing, followed by a string breaking and profanity)
Christine: ::wide eyed and stupidly:: What was that? Is someone there?
(Erik is behind the mirror)
Erik: I just broke a bloody harp string and it whipped across my hand and cut me!. I wonder if I'll need stitches.
Christine: :confused:: Oh.. A harp? ::looks as if suddenly as if a lightbulb went off in her brainless head:: Oh! Angels carry harps! Are you an angel?
Erik: Do you think angels talk to nubile young women through their dressing room mirrors?
Christine: ::blinks:: I don't know.
Erik: Do you think they become insanely obsessed with beautiful young women and would commit murder for them?
Christine: I don't know..
Erik: Do you think angels have disfigured faces?
Christine: I don't know...
Erik: Is there anything you do know?
Christine: ::defiantly:: Of course! ::looks lost for a moment, then chirps up:: One plus one is three!
Erik: ::sighs:: Ok. Well then, I AM an angel.
Christine: Oh goodie goodie! ::claps her hands together:: I've always wanted an angel of my own. Tell me, do you have a lifetime warranty?
Erik: Errr.. Sure.
Christine: Will you teach me how to sing better than anyone else in the Opera?
Erik: Well. I guess I could.
Christine: Oh! Oh! Will you steal me away to some magical place and sing to me and love me because I'm beautiful?
Erik: Don't push it.
[to be continued?]

tooo funny

Take lack of sleep, mix it with a hyper phan, and add Sisqo's "Thong Song". Bake for two hours until absurd.
"THE FOP SONG"

Erik:This thing right hereIs to let everyone knowAbout the VicomteYou know. Raoul De ChagnyHahaha, check it out -

One night just he dropped on by
At my Opera House like he was fly
Eyed my protégé like she was a dish
Made me real nervous, I wasn't liking it
Cause I'm her angel, even with this face
Now he's walking around like he owns the place
Well there's a few things that he should know
Like she's my girl, and I run this show

His skull was thick thick thick
Acts a like prick prick prick
Dumb as a brick brick brick

Now listen again

His skull was thick thick thick
Acts like a prick prick prick
Dumb as a brick brick brick
And he just won't stop

'Cause he's just a fop!
Oh yeahA fop fop fop fop fop
He needs to get a clue
I didn't know what to do with
The fop fop fop fop fop

Took Christine to my lair one night
sang for her music of the night
it was goin' good til she stole the mask
want to win her love, not an easy task

She ran to that boy fast as could be
Forgot the music, turned away from me
In a fit of rage dropped the chandelier
shocked the company, filled their hearts with fear

His skull was thick thick thick
Acts a like prick prick prick
Dumb as a brick brick brick

Now listen again

His skull was thick thick thick
Acts like a prick prick prick
Dumb as a brick brick brick
And he just won't stop

'Cause he's just a fop!
Oh yeahA fop fop fop fop fop
He needs to get a clue
I didn't know what to do with
The fop fop fop fop fop

Now I'm hopping mad that she is gone
Spent six months working on Don Juan
Went to the Masquerade dressed as Red Death
Scared my managers,
Christine lost her breath

Took the ring, peeved the boy real bad
But that was playing, he should see me mad
Gonna steal her back, gonna cook his goose
Don't piss me off boy, or you'll meet my noose

His skull was thick thick thick
Acts a like prick prick prick
Dumb as a brick brick brick

Now listen again

His skull was thick thick thick
Acts like a prick prick prick
Dumb as a brick brick brick
And he just won't stop

'Cause he's just a fop!
Oh yeahA fop fop fop fop fop
He needs to get a clue
I didn't know what to do with
The fop fop fop fop fop

OMERIK! this is SO FUNNY! LITTERALLY LMAO!!!

A Parody of the song "I'm Too Sexy" by Right Said Fred, care of the wonderful cast of Phantom. ~_^
It's the Masquerade at the Opera House, and everyone is dancing and gossiping when Erik suddenly appears at the top of the grand staircase, only, he is not dressed as Red Death - he is still in his usual evening attire. Everyone plays no attention to him as he doesn't look much different than any one else, but Christine and Raoul are passing by the bottom of the staircase, and Christine looks up, realizing who it is and gives a little yelp. Everyone stops, and follow her gaze to Erik.
Christine: Erik, I thought you were going to come dressed as Red Death.
Erik: Well, I was, but I changed my mind. you see ::he sweeps his hands out to indicate himself:: I was going to change into the Red Death costume when I thought to myself, "You know, my evening clothes are so much more flattering. he does a little twirl, then stops, tilts his head in thought:: but. now that I think about it. ::suddenly, without warning, he pulls his cloak from his shoulders, begins to twirl it over his head, breaking into song::

Erik: I'm to sexy for my cloak, to sexy for my cloak Stop laughing, it's no joke!

::Raoul has broken into uncontrollable laughter, Erik throws the punjab lasso around his neck and gives it a tug, sending Raoul tumbling down the staircase, bruised and choking, but not dead. Erik tosses his end of the punjab lasso to the floor::

Erik: I'm to sexy for my lasso, to sexy for my lasso Killing peoples' such a hassle
Well I'm the Phantom, you know what I mean And I kidnap Christine through the mirror Yeah, through the mirror, through the mirror, yeahI kidnap Christine through the mirror

::he pulls off his hat and flings it. Carlotta, who has been watching this display open jawed, get hit in the face with it::

Erik:And I'm too sexy for my hat Too sexy for my hat, what d'you think about that?

::He dances down the stairs, and dramatically rips of the mask, tossing it high into the air. Everyone gasps, and averts their eyes::

Erik:And I'm to sexy for my mask, to sexy for my mask Being a phantom is such a daunting task!
Well I'm the Phantom, you know what I mean And I kidnap Christine through the mirror Yeah, through the mirror, through the mirror, yeahI kidnap my love through the mirror

::Erik goes over to Christine, who's gone white as a sheet, but her cheeks are a little flushed by her fascination. He leans down almost face to face with her and point to himself::

Erik: I'm to sexy for my nose, to sexy for my nose So sexy it never even showed!

:: Christine looks from Raoul, who has finally untangled himself from the lasso, back to Erik. A light bulb of realization goes on over her head::

Christine: You know Erik, you ARE sexy without a nose!

::Erik and Christine run off hand in hand, leaving a confused Raoul, along with the rest of the stunned Masqueraders behind::

Raoul ::calling after them:: : Wait! I. I can rip my nose off and be too sexy too!!!...

M. Firmin ::looks down at his glass of champagne, then to M. Andre::
: I think I must be hallucinating... that's the last time I'm ever drinking three of these in a row!!!

more photo IAM ALL OF THESE, ERIK, NOT DRUG

Let's face it, being a phan is like being a drug user.How so? Both Erik and drugs are:
- Highly addictive
- Expensive to indulge in
- After you've tried it once, you want more
- Gives user a state of euphoria
- Encourages thoughts of murder, suicide, depression
- Makes users highly excitable when exposed to large doses
- Users have been known to go without food and basic living allowances to indulge
- Some users become so obsessed that it becomes their one and only focus in life
- Users sometimes become dealers, involving their friends in their new found obsession
- The more artistic of those addicted will engage in creating works of visual and literary art centralizing on the theme of drugs/Erik
- When exposed to the drug/Erik, users may go into state of mania - when suffering from withdrawal, users may slip into deep mood swings, often accompanied by deep bouts of sadness and irritability
- Users take comfort in knowing use of this drug/Erik is absolutely legalized
- Hardcore users can trace the history and evolution of the drug/Erik from its original form to its modern counterparts
- Some dealers charge outrageous prices (Andrew Lloyd Webber)
- Newer forms of the drug/Erik are often inferior to the original
- The best form of the drug/Erik is often the hardest for users to find
- Users often collect paraphernalia associate with their drug/Erik of choice
- Even though the drug/Erik is legal, some connoisseurs take their obsession to an illegal level in order to completely immerse themselves in its potent embrace
- Some users become so crazed after years of use that they begin to attack other users in a mad fit of desire to be the one and only possessor of the drug/Erik
- Some users have acquired large collections of literature about the drug/Erik
- In some extremely rare cases, drug/Erik has been known to cause users to become pathological liars(example: people who tell other users they are heavily involved in the production of said drug/Erik)i try not to, i really do!
- Some users believe they are one with the drug/Erik(of corse I am!)
- Some users spend time making lists about the common characteristics of other users ;) lmao

new musical of phantm quotes

Phantom
Music and lyrics: Maury Yeston
Book: Arthur Kopit
Premiere: Thursday, January 31, 1991

Phantom:Oh, you are music, beautiful musicAnd you are light to meOh you are music, moonbeams of musicAnd you are life to meDo re mi fa solFa re fa miTake a breath one oneAnd after three

Phantom:Ready for the run from 'do' to 'do'Oh, you are music, beautiful musicAnd you are light to meOh, you are music, sunburst of musicAnd you are light to me.

Phantom:Here you'll be safeFrom their prying and vicious eyesFar from all venomous words and malicious lies.Sleep gentle creature, my love and my protegčAs for myself, I will worship you night and day.All my existence will end if you go away...Life without your musicWould not be worth livingI'd be useless as a bell that cannot ringLeft here all aloneI'd be a sad abandoned kingWithout a land to live for...Life without your sweetnessBleak, dead, incompleteA season silent as a bird that doesn't singEndless, frozen timeThat only you can turn to spring.Without your spell, like a musical chordRunning deep in my mindLike a swell in a classical symphony.I am undone, out of step, out of tuneI'm a man who's gone blind, broken insidePoorly designed...and so youSee, with all your music!Me, with all your musicWe'd be like a race apartAnd now you're hereAnd we may start.

so many freinds.....

...... but i'm losing some. At least i still have my bestest friends!
Red is for rembrance comes out in sept.
Singing contest tomorrow
i am pshychic!
clairaudient
i can hear the spirits
i have also taken on the role of a witch.
My spells work!!!!!!
i feel soooo good!
i HAD A SEANCE
it was way fun and i wrote another song
how many songs can u write in the same key?!

Friends who havent contacted me since my party/day @ beach:
sierra
shannon
leah
vanessa
haley(although she hates me)

i think thats it.

omgodess

i have the most phriends ive eva had! i love it! erik loves me! my birthday: jun 4th!!!!!! im geting 10000 phantom opera cds and a ouija board so i can talk 2 opera ghost and the vampire don. i might have a crush on trever, idk.

leah: horse lover

leah: horse lover
i made this. go leah. no. now.

hi once more

hi. eriks in my soul
which is red
because i am a


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cool huh. im in pre awakening. thats why my massages rock.
i get my energy from being on stage.
emily ragoshke is my soul sister and will help me through awakening




give me ur ouija board

bye

hi

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On a scale of 1-10 how big of a phan are you? (phantom of the opera)
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oh yeah

You are the lovely Christine Daae. You have the
voice of an angel. Origanally a chorus girl you
gained your chance to shine in the limelight on
stage when Carlotta threw one of her fits.
There your music took wing and everyone loved
you. Espescially Raoul your childhood
sweetheart who recognised you when you took the
stage. The Phantom also loves you, feeling he
owns you since he is your teacher, you fight to
break the bonds between the two of you so you
can be free to love Raoul.

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Solo/ensamble

I got 2nd place on a solo 4 solo/ensamble. but i wuz singin the hardest level of all. A4. some hi sqlrs havent sung that difficult of a song!






You will end up with the Phantom...too bad you will
br>br>You're a very lucky lady.

Which Phantom of the Opera guy will you end up with?
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Hey, i like this

im not trying to be cool or punk or goth. i like it. i love how i did my nails. they distract me though. shhhhhhhhhinyyyyyy! gold sparkly. pretty!!!!! i like my new friends, i never knew how many nice kidz there were. i might go to choir camp! can you say choir geek guys? Can you say Tenor/Bass? Can you even imagine what guys i could fall in love with? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I cant wait. And yes, I will be there to concintrate on music. but also on guys. not by looks, by voice and musical passion.
male musicians, email me now!!!

Update

not goth no more. just dont feel like it. still wear black, but cute

go take my quizzes!

Phantom Phantasy 1
http://quizilla.com/users/eriksr0se/quizzes/Phantom%20Phantasy%201
R U my soulmate?lol
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old poem. thot id post

did you see me
when she told you
i was alive
cuz i saw you
saw you look in my eyes
but did you see
me
i bet you didn't
cuz i'm still a stranger

poem. so much like sumthin id rite 4 erik, but i rit it b4 i knew.......

cryptic words,
so deep
crawl in my mind
deep words of a story once told
this i do not understand

moving past all the world
colors so saturated
so sheer
colors of the moon
moon in my eyes
burned on to my eyes

hear the words
hear the feelings
hear the dreams

idkk

You like that Phantom, You believe that the Phantom
should have gotten Christine and it's not fair
that Raoul did.

Phantom of the Opera Quiz
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im sooooooooooooooo obsessed


YOU ARE ULTIMATELY OBSESSED!! You're friends want
to kill you and you like to burst into song in
public. You can hardly count the number of
times you've seen the musical and strive to
read every book and see every movie! You talk
to Erik in your spare time. You are obsessed my
phriend, but hey, who said that was a bad
thing?

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silver tears (completed)

furst i wanna say hi tyler



friends somewhere talk on the phone
but i'm here, all alone
silver teardrops on my paper
when will my sorrow fade away
Somewhwere there is some guy
who will teach me i am not alone
but where is he
cuz i'm stuck
with my enemies
and teardrops on my paper

paper

silver tears on my paper
sorrow in my eyes

quiz

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Thanx please rate
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past the point of no return

i am past the point of no return! ppl want me to not b goth but they dont understand! i have already become a part of the mezmerizing music of the night. o dread, ppl dont understand. but when erik is done with don juan triumphant he says we will lead a normal life.

Sunlight and Shadow Across My Hand

Sunlight and Shadow Across My Hand i cant find a way to describe this, but i love it. go here.

this is so cool!!!!!

http://images.quizilla.com/M/MlleChristineDaae/1074317033_tsErikPony.PNG

sie

pleeze, pleeze look @ my comment under my last post!!!!!!! (its a nice 1 that insults ME!!!!!)

untitled

well, idk wat to say. sierra-

 

...and know, how you repay me: denied me; betrayed me!

                      The Phantom of the Opera

 

I owe you nothing; i was never mean to ur pink. i never complained about dylan. meena has her horses, ck her llamas, u & pink, but i cant have evil?! wow! you really must think you are something special!! i was a bad friend though, i lied to much. but i guess now i wont lie to leah...

                                 

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i'm searching for someone like me
but i dont see any one
i dont understand some of these ppl
or what they do
and right now i feel so solitare
i even feel the lonlyness in the air
yeah yeah
i dont want to have to change
for you to like me
i dont want to be judjed by you
i dont want to look like you
yeah yeah

Chorus:
All I need is music
To say how I feel
All I need is music
Help solve my problems

You can depend on music
You can fall back on music
Feel the pain in music
Let it all out
Chorus

My music is angry
My music is sad
My music is a looking glass
Into me
My music is a looking glass
Inside me
Chorus

Music shows me
Music tells me
Music reveals
A whole world
My whole life
All the lies
Chorus

Skeletons in my closet
Secrets in my bag
Music in my head
Pen in my hand
Paper in my lap
Strings on the guitar
Chorus x2

Music is my
Life

look around you, arent you blind
but now do you see
what you thought
was so wrong
do you see that now?
did you think you were right
are you kidding me?
we all dont understand sometimes
but youll never understand
you will never see
any thing you see is wrong
you just dont get it
go

poems n songz

melt into dust
turn into a puddle
i just wanna slip out of my mess
i just wanna go
just wanna run away
just wanna go go go
go away
i just gotta leave

let me run
start a new life
go to a new place
wisconsin's not where i want to be
run and run and run and run
and run and run and run away
you can come with me
and we'll leave every one
and we'll be clueless
and wonder where we are

break down;
fall down
fall and fall and fall and fall do-wn

update

i dont like ne 1 rite now. yesterday i went shopping with...

(gasp) ...my mom!!!!!!!!!! i doo loaf her, but its been rockie with her lately. mabe were on good terms now.

i boght elevator maryjanes with see throgh stars and an awesome red shirt that sayz LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

none

i h8 teacherz
i might like bill n.
or trev p.
updates 2 folla

aw man

forgot mai poems in class. im realllllllllylylyy bored zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

neutral

where am i now
why do i feel so neutral
so empty
so out of poetry
i feel like i'm waiting for something
i feel like im searching
im looking but im going nowhere nowhere nowhere
im stuck in this prosaic maze like the rose
like the single rose without water

horses

http://aznhorseluvr.blogspot.com/ 

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cantwaitgoingtoimplode

2 morow @ ten fourtie five mrs. milton will post the results of the dear edwina auditions. i will blog that nite to tell you who got the part i auditioned 4

troy is gone

i dumped troy durring 5th period. he was a loser about it. i told him strait out. "troy, i'm dumping you" i said. he gave me thumbs up and said"nice" if u r a cowboy and you r reading this, i love you!!!

go

http://www.level27online.com/frames.htm

hi

here is an edwina spoonapple script:

BOBBY

Hi, I’m Bobby, your new next door neighbor. We just moved here from St. Louis…

EDWINA

Great! Can you sing?

BOBBY

Umm…

EDWINA

Can you dance?

BOBBY

Well…

EDWINA

You’ll learn!

BOBBY

(Bewildered)

I just came to drop off these brownies from my mom!!!

(ANNIE and some other KIDS place LARS on a stretcher.)

LARS

Make me proud, kiddo! You’re going out there the new kid on the block…but you’re coming back a STAR!

EDWINA

(Gives LARS a hug.)

Be brave, Lars!

SCOTT

(Preparing himself to receive a hug from Edwina.)

I stubbed my toe, Edwina!

(EDWINA ignores him, throwing sheet music at BOBBY as the KIDS help LARS offstage.)

BOBBY

I heard there’s a kid my age who lives here.

EDWINA

You must be thinking of my sister Katie. She’s at the Michigan Summer Match Olympics in Ypsilanti [pronounced: Ipsilanti].

BOBBY

Oh, well, I heard that we were moving in next door to the best piano player in town. Do you give piano lessons?

EDWINA

You must be thinking of my sister Myra. I’m sure you can talk to her after the show.

BOBBY

Oh, then you must be that drummer I heard practicing this morning. You sound great!

EDWINA

You must be thinking of my brother Joe.

BOBBY

Well…who are YOU?

EDWINA

I am Edwina Spoonapple, advice-giver extraordinaire. Perhaps you have heard of me.

BOBBY

Not really.

EDWINA

Would you like to be in out show?

BOBBY

No thanks.

EDWINA

No thanks necessary!

(Grabbing his arm.)

Now Bobby…we’ll just get you started on the opera, and the big tap number and…

(Gets an idea.)

You can’t eat fire by any chance, can you?

finally

things gasp have lightened up but dont worry im still in the dark. i am going to audition for the lead lead in the musical. please support me.

bored

Bored you read it. i still love troy, but he hasnt called. im going bowling 2morrow. with him and sierra. will he ever kiss me? oh, troy, please kiss me! went shopping 2 days in a row. i am happy. i go to the pine ridge on fri. sql starts again on tue the 5th.

Sierra where r u?????

hello

still love troy.
must try out 4 sql musical. must try out 4 susie

ok it sux

not mi best, but itz a start

save us save us save us loose us loose us loose us
get lost live lost
i'm shouting i'm screaming
i'm anry i'm fed up
save us save us save us

mi wrld

well, as of now, i have a friend count of 1, troy does not count. every 1s mad @ ME. NE WAYS BILLY READ MY BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!! I THINK, CUZ I GOT AN EMAIL FROM DC FLAGZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE OBVIOSLY LIKED IT. i guess ur reading off the blog of a nouthur punk hard metal rock**!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
troy and i
oh, troy i go to his xmas par t 2 nite. i gotta get more songz on this damn thing

Havent been here!!!

Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrsculsux ilove troy wenzel
i h8 mr albertine
i love troy. what i love about troy:
he's nice, and romantic
funny
smarter than me!!!
hott
he can do the splitz!!!!!!
he can write poetry
hes experianced
he likes ME

troy said he loves me. that is a first for me, but i likeit

love by:hannah holtz (a friend)

luv is special
luv is kind
luv is neva left b hind
luv is sharing
luv is caring
luv is wat god
has 4 u



i wanted 2 rite that up here cuz all my poems r angry or sad so there u r ur "happy" poem.

depresion

first thing i wanna say:
BILLY ROX ME 2 DEATH or close enuph
got sum songz


i'm stuck here/i'm nobody/I'm undiscovered/my life is confined/ inside these walls/my life is open/onto paper/ life is short/ death is shorter/ i wanna mke something of/ this hopeless life/ and be discovered/ and be uncovered/ i dont wanna b rich and famous/ but they sounbd like fun/ i wanna b an inspiration/ like you r 2 me

i dont know bout u but i am sick of thinking of titles for how boring my life is

billy rox. ummmm, field trip 2day. no guys in my life. havent written a song, but if i wuz @ home i'd have sum 4 u. guess i'll bring mai notebook here 4 once. i wish sum thin x citin wood happen 2 me. even sumthing scary. it wood b funnish. lately ive been trying to make fun 4 myself. but that leads 2 trouble. maybe a stalker wood b fun. sum 1 obsessed about me. sounds hott. i guess. maybe a famous person will discover me. i need a business card. emily leclaire: musican. emily leclaire: artist.

sql5

@sql math. ummmmmmmmmmmm ttyl

Boredom, anger, and boredom(did i mention frikin BOREDOM???!!!!!!!)

im mad a lj. ma b i dont want a guy in my life right now. plus hes really ANNOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just need to find a hard working, yet mellowish, strong guy who eats, breaths, sleeps, LIVES music like i do. music is my life and the only thing ive ever given my all at. music was created 4 me, i was created 4 music. as u read this, i want you 2 know, u cant even imagine the emotion i typed this in. my emotin, love, and devotion 2 music is so full- it is a fullness that i will never run out of. in fact i shall comit suicide if i ever fail music, or loose my fullness. i vow i will comit suicide if that ever happens.

yes, i am still bored. yes, my apple sauce was drugged or sumthing- i'm hyper. put that whole music thing IS FRIKIN TRUE.

confused

LJ called me his gf in front of ppl!!!! but 4 sum reason, i dont know if he ment it. i cant x plain. he also said he broke up w/ katie. i am happy, but i hope she is not mad @ him, and i hope she does not find out that i could be his gf. i will update. i am exited. he said if he had $, we'd go 2 culvers, but i bet mai mom woutlnt let me. wat a geek i am, huh. i hope he does not think that. bi

umm, new guy

umm his name is lj. we have a lot in common. gotta gf though. thats how it goes. o wait. i got sumthin i wrote last wk but coodnt load. here it is


Another day, another five songs. A good day, yes. A bad day, yes. Mostly bad. or mostly good? Life is that way, I guess. A lot of things are that way. Where does lonliness fit in love and longing? I think some ppl, all ppl, get lonely and give their hearts and friendships off to a stranger. Its fun. but it bruses.

I’m so very really confusing a lot much are not I? ((lol))

Heres a song.

Let it fall
Let it fall
Let it fall
Let me fall
You have failed
And you don’t know
How dark it is
Let me fall
Fall
Let me fall
It will fall
And all
You said
Will fall
And fall
And fall
Let me be
Lost
Because you
Don’t know how dark it is
To fall
And fall
And fall

I’m falling
Down
I’m falling
In love
I’m falling
Asleep
I’m falling
For you
I”m falling
Catch me now
Why does it hurt
When I fall
Why can’t I control it all
Falling so far underneath
And I catch my breath
My thoughts are falling
Out of my mouth
Is my life falling
What is falling for you

How dunb am I
I cant stop asking
Because I am lost.


I like lj

Speaking of likes,
My best friend has a crush on her neighbor. I think sierra should go out with him. We will call him joe. Sierra, my friend, also likes 10,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000, 000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000, 000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 other boys. I would like to receive advise, thank you very much. Joe is sort of my friend, and he flirts w/ every girl in ever. He does not know this. My friend sierra flirts a lot ,too. I hope no one gets jealous in that relationship. I also hope he really does like her back, how cant he, to the guys shes georgeous, because my worst enemy, capital R liked him too, last year. Am I glad they didn’t go together. But just to clear things, I didn’t go out w/ joe either.








p.s. i talked to "joe" hes not looking 4 a gf, but just not that its sierras ugly.........
i hope he decides he wants a gf soon so he and sierra can b happy.


ummmmmmmmmm i'm gonna go now

Every day

o. i have not put in ne poems lately, i am so sorry. sql sux. i'm here @ tha library and all mai peerz r here.

bla

blah



why do i constantly complain?

need a man

must find a hott guy.

once upon a time

life sux. i need a man. no, not really. i need a hug. lol. life is wierd. oh, well, life is. MUST GET DUN W/ HM WK!!!


Spencer has no chin shape, really, but for some reason he still has a second one. (is that confusing or what???!!!)


cory. he is my friend. he thinks sies hott. he must not know our rules:

like us equally
date us equally
dance with us
secretly like me better
if u date 1 of us, u can still flirt w/ tha other
there r no rules, baby (lol)




he'll get to know me n knoe i'm hotter. plus i got a better milkshake

tha dance

sierra and i r both over spencer. he is now dating an ugly girl. i dont get it. i dont care.

my first bf ever, from kintergarden, is my new guy. first guys neva end.

sql4

homework is infinity. confusion is my mystery. love is my longing. longing is my love.

yes i said that, created it, and u can quote me.





why do i like spencer. usually i h8 ftball players, but this 1s diffrent, i think. i hope. dad started talking 2 me again. he hadnt talked 2 me in awile. wat a bby.


spencer is.....


.... i dont know. hes nice and cute. ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm idk


MUST GET A BASS MUST LEARN MORE MUSIC MUST BUY CRONICLES OF LIFE AND DEATH BY GOOD CHARLOTTE

bie

sql3

nothing much. jessica curler wants to go out w/ mike. gotta askim 4 her. i hope spencer likes me. the rents had a fight last night. open house, didnt go. daddy might get a divorce (finally) no more fights if that happened. but i guess things r the same. buh-bie

sql2

i gave a song from mai fave band 2 spencer. he gave me a really ql smile when he saw me next. go to google and type in lyrics to dont wanna stop by good charlotte. there u go
bye

sql

School is the most boring thing on the planet

This just in

E-mail me, u idiot!!!

childofdark1981@yahoo.com

billy

martin

well,yeah

oh, about mai post, "gotta make tis 1 kwik" pleeze no annonomous comments. if u r the 1 ho left that 1 & u no me, call me. cuz i think i know u, & i'll call u.

dood

Mmm kay. 1 of these dayz I’m gonna figure out how my scanner works, and I will put my artwork on the net. I am an artist, if I haven’t exclaimed it b 4. I’m a singer/ song writer/ photographer. And I love it. All I need is a publisher or producer to view this…

OK, IF YOU R 1 OF THE ABOVE, GIMME A CAREER RIGHT NOW. Nothing more unprofessional than that. But hear this:
“Never b 2 proud 2 beg. U may have to get on ur neez-
With a thousand angry screaming people behind u.”
-Jack Black

a first 4 ella

i live inside
a tini tini place
h says its a refuge
but i'm not sure if its safe

outide of my face
i live in a city
its most segregated
not sure you should know

i live
yeah
in a state
with a governor
who keeps laws
to kill my baby
yeah

some say democrcy rox
but i'm content
with my box
you know
john kerry has a chin
that looks
like a lady's...
yeah
but then
there's our president
a lota ways he aint helpin
with the national debt
yeah

no title

mmmm kay. the next three songs were written when i was mor punk.

Another Day

Chorus:
This is another song
About a girl
Does she know right from wrong?
She’s angry at the world

Today is tomorrow’s yesterday
And
Today is yesterday’s tomorrow
But every day I wake up
To the sun rising on my face
(Chorus)

Another day
What am I going to do?
It’s the same old day
And every day
I wait until the end of time
(Chorus)

Will someone rescue me?
No
But I will myself
And I’m almost where I want to be

Today is tomorrow’s yesterday
And
Today is yesterday’s tomorrow
And I’ll be out by tomorrow
Because I’m just another girl
Do I know right from wrong?
I’m angry at the world

________________

I know it takes a lot to realize
You really care
I know it takes a lot to realize
You’re really there
And all I can wish is
You could be near
And all I can wish is
You could be here
How come I miss you
Why had she kissed you
Yeah

I know I look this way and
I don’t always wanna stay and
You should know
I have feelings locked inside
You have heard me say it before
You have tried to help me before
But maybe I must realize
I made a bid mistake now
Yeah

We were shallow and unwise
I should’ve seen that look in your eyes
Now its not there
Id bet your game is over
Id bet you’ve learned your lesson
But before I go
Let us both just know
Just where we are
YEAH!!!

__________

My First Battle

This is
(Chorus:)
My First Battle
It will be fun ‘til the very end
This is
Me
Don’t wanna grow up

If acting my age
Means listening
I don’t know if I’m up for it
What did you say?
I was thinking about
(Chorus)

I will win
My First Battle
Sure, it will be easy
Here’s for not caring
Because
This is
(Chorus)

If acting my age
Means leaving craziness behind
Sorry, I’m not in
This may not be working out
But it’s
(Chorus)

unwritten songz!!!

this may b understandable if this is b ing read by a singer or writer like me. I cant get out anything. How can I put into words my screams and thoughts that r so unexplainable to me? Mmm kay, I’m getting a headache. I’m gonna practice my music. Gotta work on “rain” (u should b familiar) I got the notes in my head, I’ve sang them b 4, but I have 2 pause and figure out the notes to the beginning of the verse. Then when I try 2 get inspired, I feel selfish, I mean 1 of my best poems was written when my close uncle died. I’m running out of songs to paste up here from my document window. I do have poems from when I was preppy (very very very very very unbelieveable). And I do have poems from when I was more punk. But 2 me now they seem preppyish maybe a little. (if that makes sense) I think I’m gonna change my music, it may help. I’m actually listening to Good Charlotte. Definatle not a surprise, except 4 my scene.
The following poems r sorta sucky. (they are unfinished)

Uninspired
Mind as gray as
The sky
Practice my music
Who knows
What I’m thinking
Some days
I wish I could understand
I could understand

_______________________


Let it fall
Let it fall
Let it fall
Let me fall
You have failed
and You don’t know
how dark it is
let me fall
fall
let me fall
it will fall
and all
your said
will fall
and fall
and fall
let me be
Lost
Because you
Don’t know how dark it is
To fall
And fall
And fall

(end)

oops

on the last post, i left sumthing out. me. ella. chello!?i'm the 1 who is the troubled school girl who writes the songs.

TIME 4 ELLA'S INSIDE JOKE:

chello- the violin version of my obsession, the bass. used by ella as hello. 4 x-ample: "Chello! I forgot 2 clean the living room"

(my living room is clean, thankyou very much)

2day, again

4 those who r wondering, the previous and soon 2 b following r all written by a troubled schoolgirl, of the stresses she feels @ home and through homeroom 2 7th period. (x-cept gym. who writes in gym, honestly???!) hello 2 eyes of horus! & welcome 2 my school friends. ne1 have Mr.Toman for homeroom?

song cra z

like em? theres more in my strange head!

I can never seem to find
That certain boy in my mind
I’d be surprised if I was to find
That I’m the person in
Someone’s mind

I’m not the prototype
For the perfect daughter that parents
Might desire

I seem to never look up,
Finding that when I do
Something falls
Down on me

People might think
That I was always
This way
People need to know
What they hear
People always
Just hear
What they wanna hear
And if you don’t wanna hear me

Old people say
To act your age
Why should we
Cuz they don’t
Some can’t walk
Some can’t talk
Some can’t remember
Sometimes being a teen
Aint what it seems
Sometimes growing up
Growing up sucks
That’s why I don’t wanna

Some times every day is hard
To find someone to talk to and
Sometimes rain falls down
Sometimes I fall down in the rain
I think it’s happening again
I feel like I’m always
Always falling
But when will the falling stop

I seem to never look up,
Finding that when I do
Something falls
Down on me

I can never seem to put down
On paper what I feel
But one day I’ll find some one who knows
Before I grab a paper
What I’m gonna say
Maybe one day

Sometimes being a teen
Aint what it seems
Sometimes growing up
Growing up sucksThat’s why I don’t wanna

Rain (a song)

Rain, rain, rain

All, all day

World:

Big, blue gray:

Lonely

Gone, gone, gone

Get lost in these words.

Leave your mind
Behind.
Cry, cry, cry
All, all day.
Sky:
Cold, gray, empty:
Cruel.
Cruel, cruel.
Get lost in my words.
Don’t leave your heart
Behind.
Don’t leave your soul
Behind.
Spin, spin, spin
All, all day.
People:
Here, gone, leaving:
Alone. Alone, alone.

back

i have Mr. Toman 4 homeroom, Mrs. moylan 4 math, umm.. who's 3rd period again?! cant check now. i must buy hot topic stock! it's big stock is NASDAQ, but like i'm gonna pay that much $! (but believe me, i still dont think i know what i'm talking about) hehehe! omg. its like evry time a group of kids c s me, and 1 of my friends is w/ them, it seems that when i c that friend again, their like, "did u c me w/ those kids yesterday? they were all, 'emily is a jerk' 'emily is so wierd'"

then i feel bad 4 my friends, and as usual, myself. i h8 feeling sorri 4 myself, i think i'll always b depressed. ne way, hpefuli 2morrow i'll remember to post another song.

Ummm.. gotta make this 1 kwik

guess wat?! my soul has a twin! her name is H (Chelsea), and we r both riot girls! ne way, the WI state fair is going on, and i cant wait til the moment i get my cream puff! hehehehehehehe! b 4 i log off, i'm gonna save sum leVel 27 tees and sum emily the strange tees. those r my fave. brands, b sides made.

Talk About Non-commitment

just kidding. so.. i havent written in awhile. not one bby siting job!! school starts in a month, and belive it or not, i cant wait! i bet i'll take that back soon. neway, bye!

monday, july 19

I write poetry. i hate my poems, but sometimes i sing them. i'd like to start a band, and i would do so much to play bass guitar. hear is my latest song.
 
There is a girl
She is alone she is lost
Not ready to be found
She might be gone
She is right here
But that's not where she is
She might be strange
This might sound strange
But she is me
She has a light inside
An idea that glows
Maybe she knows
Its not called hiding
She's deciding where to go
What to hear
What does she hear
She never seems to understand
What she says what she thinks

i told u id brb

k. i wuz @ hottopic the other wk and there wuz this REALLY HOT GUY. (not suprising) i waited til he was @ the check out desk 2 check out. i completely froze! i also saw him @ lunch & waited 45 mins to go back. i ran 2 the accsessories asile, not knowing he was there. incase ur wondering, he looked like billy martin(my obsession from gc) xcept he had long hair tied up in a ponytail no lip piercing, and i was 2 busy to look 4 arm tatoos. awsome, huh?
pleze give comments

7/16 10:00am

Well, i don't know about you, but i could use something
to do this summer. Like, maybe a job. Wisconsin is not the best place to live. i'd bet youve never seen so many friggin mosquitoes. i really dont like the outdoors much, but when i'm out there, its hell. ok, you are reading this thinking who the ____ is this, well, um, idk. anyways, i'm bored, arent you? brb